Contentment

Just for a moment I felt contentment.

I had succeeded!

I’d solved the puzzle -

Finished the job -

Completed the task -

Met my goal -

Hit the mark!

Just for a moment I thought -

I was - might be - capable!

I was smart!

I had arrived.

I was a success.

And then ---

The next challenge came my way

And my contentment dissolved

In, not only my fears of inadequacy,

But my absolute knowledge

Of my weakness.

I did not - Could not know all I needed to know!

I could not provide all the power for the task!

I could not be everywhere I might need to be!

I could not see all that I should see!

I could not hear all that I should hear!

A bit of fear took over my contentment!

And then I thought

Contentment does not come from my resources

I must rely on the resources of my Father.

I am a child of the King.

He is adequate

And He loves me!

I found contentment - even in my weakness.

Billy R. Masten

01/28/10