Depression

Some deal with depression day upon day.

I dealt with it for one day.

Not so long ago.

It was cloudy, I think.

Cloudy or not, for me it was cloudy.

I could get no clear image of action I should take.

I might blame the way I felt on

A business opportunity that looked like it would succeed.

Then looked like it might fail.

Or a good that I attempted

Then feared the action would do harm.

It was a day that the good that I would I could not.

And some that I would not I did.

A hundred actions haunted my mind.

A hundred motions made.

Yet none were in focus.

I felt despair.

What was the use?

I know not. I am not. I can not.

All is above me. No one cares. Neither do I.

The sun set.

The sun rose.

The good I attempted was good.

I am better.

In spite of the way I felt -

God still loves me.

In Spite of the good I did not --The bad I did

He forgave me!

He has promised, in spite of my self,

He will present me faultless.

By His power -- By His presence

By His wisdom -- By His love

I am made whole -- In spite of me.

Because of His grace

I can rise in the morning and attempt the day

Walking with Him in my weakness

Relying on His strength believing Him!

Billy Masten

02/22/10